A job offer in the country, a hot new guy on the scene, I thought my life was finally on track. But then Alex came home stressed. One sentence—"You're in the way!", and my perfect world shattered. Kicked out, yelled at, and locked out. Homeless on the night before my 15th birthday. Welcome to rock bottom.

My jealousy over Kev and Alex? It vanished. Replaced by something new: one joint, one confession, and the fucked-up realization that shame could be a major turn-on for me. Suddenly, I wasn't in control. Alex gave me my first direct order, and I crawled to him like a puppy - and it felt so damn right.