Public Wanking is my ultimate rush! After years of East Asian shame, I use the fear of getting caught to push my kink to Level 1000. It’s the ultimate fight between the raw thrill of public exposure and the crushing shame afterward. Read my full confession on the Shame vs. Thrill battle.
Hey guys, Mark the Wanker here! 😜
Yup, my last article was a mega-brain-dump of classical literature and hardcore kink philosophy. Hope I didn’t totally shock you with Goethe. So, let’s make things a bit more profane and dirty today. Checking my posts lately, I realized I haven’t officially shown you the little wanker inside me for a while. Grinning. We’re fixing that right now!
‘Cause yeah, I fucking love to jerk off. And you can imagine: these weeks with uni starting and so few dates—a horny 18-year-old just has to get off a lot! I’m not a high-volume cummer—compared to other guys my age, not much comes out, haha!—but I’m a high-frequency cummer. I have no idea what’s normal, but I’ve had days where I blew my load 7 or 8 times. Less material comes out, sure, but that energy just has to go somewhere! And it feels soooo good.
I was honestly worried if that was weird or unhealthy. But I was pretty relieved when I read that frequency doesn’t matter, as long as it’s not a compulsion. And it’s not for me—it’s pure, unfiltered, inner horniness! I read that enjoying masturbation is normal at any age. It felt mega weird imagining my Dad or Grandpa also wanking hard. But then I remember: the Kink-Daddies I date love to jack off, too. In those situations, it feels totally normal, but the thought of my own father doing it feels totally strange. Aren’t all of us Kinksters a bit weird? I guess most people find the thought of their parents having sex weird, but someone had to conceive us, and we should be thankful our Dads weren’t just wankers, or we wouldn’t be here! 🙂
I also read that jacking off has health benefits. Studies show that regular ejaculation can lower the risk of prostate cancer, strengthen the immune system, and relieve pain like headaches.
So, now everyone has an excuse for wanking! That thing about my inner horniness was a lie, then. I only do it for my health. My God, I can lie without turning red. 🤣
Asian Cringe vs. Euro Kink: Assimilating My Shame and Education
When I look at my first wanking videos, I almost want to cringe—they’re straight-up shit! I’m sitting there like a cramped amateur. You can tell I wasn’t comfortable with the camera; it was new, and it felt strange to show myself like that. Yup, you guys noticed I loosened up. Because yeah, I’m a little Exhibitionist, and I love showing myself! But a bit of shame always lingers, because back in East Asia, we’re raised not to show any fucking emotion to the outside world. As a good migrant, I’m trying to assimilate and bring my emotions up to a European sex-level, but trust me, that upbringing is deep in my ass!
But hey, since we’re talking Exhibitionism, let’s talk about the hardcore shit: Sex in Public Places! Dude, that’s the ultimate Adrenaline-Kick. Jerking off gets pushed to Level 100 there, and with someone else? Easy Level 1000! The thrilling fear of getting caught—that is the turbo that slams everything. I know many find that danger a total turn-off deluxe, but that makes me mega hot. That is pure boundary-breaking! I still don’t dare to do too much here because I’m a guest in this country and really cannot handle any trouble with the cops. I want to experience that more, though! Okay, it’s getting cold outside, but forests aren’t the only public places.
The Public Kink stuff is also totally weird. It’s mega exciting, but one little sound around you, and a massive boner shrinks to a tiny thing. From 120 to zero in a millisecond! The horny thrill of the forbidden keeps you ready, but one little noise? Moment gone!
And guess what? I don’t care if the old grandma with her walker sees me. That’s irrelevant. I care way more that someone sees me who checks my kink, a true Voyeur who finds it just as hot. That’s the vibe I have here on my page. I know I’m not harassing you guys—that’s totally not my thing. But the fear that it might be the wrong person is always on the scene.
That is the most extreme emotional rollercoaster ever! Fear turns into horniness, and then, after you cum, this intense Shame-Wave hits you: ‘What the hell am I doing? Gotta get out of here!’ And right after that comes a Triumph-Feeling: ‘I actually went through with it! I’m such a horny badass!‘ That is the Shame vs. Thrill fight. That’s part of it, and only that rollercoaster makes the whole thing so mega hot for me. Do you guys get what I mean?
Does anyone have some hard, safe tips on how I can live this kink here without ending up in jail?
Well, enough talking—time for today’s video. Today you guys get a little cross-section of my wanking activities. Here’s a preview and an XXL-Version for the fans, who of course get more photos!
I hope you guys liked my report today, and yeah, I’ve got one final question for you. I honestly want to develop further in this field, because this is a kink need that runs deep in me:
Does anyone have some hard, safe tips on how I can live this kink here without ending up in jail?
Your Fapper Mark S.
