Hello Athleticlust, glad to talk to you. Now, it’s kinda easy to see that you are into rubber. But can you tell me a little bit about why you love to be covered in it so much? 😉 What does it do with your head when you’re put in it?
I think many kinksters agree that the tightness of rubber blows up the sensation. I enjoy the feeling of being covered as much as possible (without any skin visible the best) In some case I also enjoy showing off my naked body, but that should be another story haha… well back to the points, what does it do with my head? I’m not sure what the “head” here really refers to, so I give two answers. :p
If it means the “physical” head, I’m a huge fun of masks and hoods. Head and face are usually how we identify each other, but I don’t see myself as a single self, and masks are usually the last thing I put so as to turn into another self. On the “mental” side, rubber, especially when in black color, gives me the sense of wildness. When I am put in rubber piece by piece, I feel the wildness take over my inwardness.
Wildness? Isn’t that something that people associate more with animal roleplay? In what way does that come over you? Can you explain that a bit more?
Rubber for me is something between natural and artificial, definitely different from humankind, but it serves as another layer of skin. With the black color, it feels like blending in the darkness. For me, everything is enlarged in the darkness, as well as the sensation, together with the imagination. This is my definition of wildness, or unruliness, seemingly different from the wildness of animals.
Imagination is a very powerful resource in fetish. What are some of the scenarios you love to experience/imagine yourself in?
As written in the bio on my twitter profile, “rubber immobilized and dark imprisoned, that’s my fantasy.” While fully rubbered, I enjoy being fixed or restrained as in bondage or vacbed. Blindfold and breath control are huge turn-on. I’m somehow fascinated by this idea, but frightened of it at the same time. It’s always the matter of trust with the dominant, only when it’s all set, I can enjoy it to the most.
Breath play is a play with danger, and we tend to feel more alive when around that. Do you also seek and explore your borders for your fetishes and push them?
Yeah bit by bit over all these years. My fetish journey actually starts from sneakers (mainly hightops), so it’s the tightness around the feet, then comes rubber, the tightness around the whole body. 5 years ago, I was not a fan of gag and plug at all, but somehow they excited me from time to time. Pain is also an interesting concept, and it consolidates the feeling, not only the pain itself, but also the enthusiasm and eagerness.
It’s still confined to soft SM, and I’m not sure how far I can go at this moment. However, I’m always ready to be put in another layer of rubber, and the border will be how long I can stay inside. Oh, did I mention if there are some good worn hightops aside? I will definitely go crazy.
Haha high tops are also my personal favorites. Give me a little bit of a ankle cuff replacement feeling when I’m not wearing them 😉 When did you start realizing that they are a fetish for you and not just a passion?
For high tops, it was in my high school, but rubber comes much later, like in my mid 20s. Let me tell you some little stories about my shoe fetish. When I was around 10, I used to go to my granny’s house after school, and at that time my uncle was living there as well but usually at work when I went there. I love the smell of his shoes so much that I always tried to hide them by thinking in this way I can sniff them anytime I want, but the families just thought why I kept making this mischief.
And after I grew up, I went to a all-boys high school. In those years, we had to wear suit and tie every day to school, and were only allowed to change clothes and shoes in the classroom for sport classes. Since I always stayed at school till quite late, I can’t hold the desire for those hot sneakers… One time I came across a pair of EXTREMELY smelly nike air flightposites, I was hesitating for a while but still decided to put my feet in. What happened next is, I rushed to the restroom in no time, but still came in my pants before getting in. This is the moment I knew it’s not just a passion. It’s a fetish.
How did you manage to come to terms with that, and how did you start to live your fetishes out with others? I imagine an all-boys high school wasn’t the easiest place for it, even with the hot smelly sports sneakers 😉
Haha indeed at that time it was more like guilty pleasure for me, and I did have great time alone in those school years. To be honest, it was not that difficult for myself to understand or even accept, and realize fetish is already with me since childhood. But I want to address that my biggest enlightenment must go to http://gearfetish.com , I was (and I believe many people were) so sad when this website was shut down. I built up some good connections with same minds in different countries, although at that moment I didn’t know much about the community in my hometown Taiwan. (gearfetish was shut down in 2014, if I remembered it right)
During 2013 and 2014, I came to Berlin as an exchange student, but everyone knows it must not be just an academic program (grins) So, for the first time in my life, I tried rubber in this fetish capital, and BOOM, here I am. Bit by bit I knew more and more people living in or visiting Berlin in this period. I went back to Taiwan for a couple of years to serve the military and had my first job, and thanks to social media I started to know much better about the community in Taiwan.
To my surprise, it not even small, and every year on Taipei pride (the biggest pride in Asia other than Tel Aviv) there are bigger and bigger groups in rubber, leather, puppies and so on. Even though now I come back to Berlin again for work, I am happy that I’m part of the community both in my lovely hometown and Europe.
What do you love most about each of these communities? 🙂
There are no big differences among them. They all give me the sense of belonging, not only because we are the minority (fetishist or kinkster) of the minority (gay), but also I don’t need to explore the world and the fantasy alone like in high school. Fetish is our common language, and sharing is the bridge. Of course it’s easier to keep updated with the community here in Europe, since there are big fetish events almost every month, and you can easily go around. In comparison, the community in Taiwan is still young, sassy, just making its first steps as a scene, still innocent, not “spoiled” by too much permissiveness and decadence. Everything is still new, shiny, crisp and “fresh”.
Hehe fresh forming kink areas always have a certain innocence about them, don’t they. 🙂 And Catchword fresh. Is there anything you could advise younger kinksters who wanna join a local community, but don’t know how?
I know there will always be some people who are more introvert, and some more extrovert. For those home boys, it’s totally fine to hide behind the mask (I mean both the real rubber mask or the mask of reality aka social media) Not everyone is willing to show all his different aspects, but what important is never feel ashamed of yourself, and do what make you feel joy (or I may even say, lust 😉 )
For those who want to step further and know more people, the SM network (SM stands for social media, but well.. what a coincidence) has developed good connections between each other. Find an event close by, try to talk to people. Everyone is there to share his own special stories, and there’s always something in common. (I even find someone with the same stories as my high school life..) Anyway, if you still can’t find anyone to start, I’m here. (big grins)
