I’m Ru, born near Moscow in ’01. Growing up in Russia around the millennium? Let’s just say it was a wild ride. Parents split early, but my mom? Total superhero. Fought tooth and nail for us both, and that’s where I got my grit. Video games were my jam, and this old PC my mom managed to get was my escape. But it was always breaking down, so I learned to tinker, to fix things. That’s where my IT passion sparked, the thing I ended up studying after school.

Two years back, I took the plunge, moved to Germany, building my life with studies and work. Talk about a culture shock! Everything’s different: the language, the food, the way people just… do things. Building a new life here, balancing studies and work, it’s been intense. But honestly? Not a single regret.

Team sports? Never my thing. But being active? Always. My coach saw something in me, pushed me towards cycling, then kayaking. Cycling was brutal, loved the challenge. Pushing limits, facing setbacks, learning to bounce back. Kayaking? Pure freedom, but also a fight. Me and a buddy, battling the elements, exploring the wild. Those trips were intense, physically demanding, but that’s what made them so real. It was on those trips, out in nature, just us against the world, that it really hit me. I’m gay. It wasn’t a sudden thing, more like a slow reveal, a realization that grew stronger with every stroke of the paddle. Nature, just us, it was the perfect space to discover who I really am. That drive to push my limits, that intensity I developed in sports, it slowly started to manifest in my sexuality too. It was like I was exploring how far I could go, what really turned me on, in every aspect of my life.

It wasn’t just resilience that shaped my sexuality, but sports gear like Lycra and neoprene too. I grew to love that tightness, that second-skin feeling. How it kind of puts your body out there, you know? Like, you’re dressed, but still kinda naked.

But it’s definitely that snugness that sparked my thing for bondage too. There’s something about being wrapped up, confined, that just… clicks with me. It’s like, the ultimate expression of control and surrender, all wrapped into one.

For me, sports and sexuality are intertwined. It’s about pushing limits, peak performance, and sheer endurance. And yeah, there’s that whole power dynamic thing – control, submission. So, if you’ve followed me this far, it probably won’t shock you that I’m a sub. I crave giving up control, being pushed to my edge, and to suffer.

There’s something freeing about surrendering completely, being used, being utterly at someone else’s mercy. But that takes serious trust, you know? I want my sexuality to be about pleasing someone else, and that’s probably why chastity’s another big kink of mine.